What is WDYSTWA?

It's a question, actually.


[It's a question related to our individual search for our own identity.]

This is a question I ask of our Creator, I pose it to Jesus just as He poses it to us in the Gospel of Matthew and I will continue to ask as long as I am on this spiritual journey toward the most generous heart I know, the most precious relationship I can have with someone who loves me more than any one could ever love me, my God, deserving of all my love and affection, my Abba.

I encourage you to ask Him the same question, in regard to your own identity.

Maybe, if you're curious you will stick around and read about the life-changing, belief-somersaulting, real-life answers I've found. If you've been searching for knowledge of who you are, of how you fit into this world, or if there really is a plan just for you you've come to the right place. Or if you've ever wondered about how all of the love in the world, all of the truths of the universe, and a creator of all of the galaxies who is the being who possesses and excretes the power which generates the forces of life and upholds this existence (without which we would instantaneously disintegrate like the man in Indiana Jones who drank the wrong holy grail), in combination with a church and an innocent man who chose to die a most excruciatingly, wrongful and yet so rightful death, could possibly fit together in a profoundly beautiful, neatly tied bow...you've just stumbled up the most amazing find of your life. Not because I'm such a great writer but because you are loved so deeply, if you read what I have to share, it will sincerely change the way you think about what you thought you knew or at least, hopefully, it will give you a better understanding of what you had no idea about.


In the gospel of Matthew, Jesus is in Caesare'a Philip'pi, a city full of pagan worshippers of  idols and many false gods, with his disciples and He asks of them, "Who do men say that the Son of Man is?" And they said, "Some say John the Baptist, others say Elijah, and others Jeremiah or one of the prophets." He said to them, "But who do you say that I am?"

That right there. That is THE question we should all ponder. Jesus wants to know the answer to that question from each and every single one of us. When he asks only Simon, brother of Andrew, has a response. He answers and shocks even himself with this transcendent truth that he proclaims to the group:

"You are the Christ, the Son of the living God."

And Jesus answers him, "Blessed are you, Simon, bar Jona (son of John)! For flesh and blood has not revealed this to you, but my Father who is in heaven." (Because of Simon's bold proclamation of truth here, knowledge given straight from the Father's heart, Jesus gives Him a leadership role much like the one He himself holds, a first among equals, He bestows on him the authoritarian role over Christ's Church. He offers a stewardship of His kingdom on earth, so that there may be a physical authority that we can trust in, once Jesus ascends to the Father, after His Resurrection. Jesus knows that we can't all be our own authority lest it cause mass chaos in His mystical body, known as "the church", He knew we had the potential to divisively tear ourselves (His Body) into tinier segments (denominations) which is why He prayed in John 17 for us to be ONE, just as He and the Father are one; and so His plan was perfect. 

He instituted a leader, He gave him a new name and a new role: a first among equals, as I stated before. This was just one of the generous ways that Jesus provided for our needs before He died. He did it early on so that we can see how Jesus still wants us, and entrusts us, to have really big roles in spite of our terrible decisions.

More on Peter's role as leader of Christ's Church, His steward of His Kingdom on Earth, in one of my Raw Shares.

You may be wondering where all of my photos went and why I'm talking about God and stuff and being all weird all of a sudden...


In 2017, I became Catholic. Which by the way, actually does mean that I'm still a Christian though some of you may want to argue about that, Catholicism is where Christianity all started...and where it will all end.

What do I mean by that?

You will have to read about my journey and my findings, my opinions, my beliefs, if you are curious enough to know "what went wrong?" then you'll find out precisely what went right. I will still be sharing photos but most of my portfolio will be on a page by itself, a very brief portfolio for my side work, the rest will all be personal. I have been writing since late 2016, I just haven't been blogging because it was a very personal and vulnerable journey coming into the Church.

But, now I feel brave enough to talk about our journey, our faith, our family, our failures, our misunderstandings, our marriage, our joys, our sorrows, and all of our shareable redeemed shame. Haha. 

(Also, I really love puns. I'm in my early thirties but my sister has grown fond of calling me an 80-year-old man because of my love of puns. You'll just have to suffer through that part. Or in the case of you're already a Catholic, you will understand the old phrase "offer it up"...just go ahead and do that.)


"You can have no greater sign of confirmed pride than when you think you are humble enough."—C.S. Lewis, The Problem of Pain